How many times do I have to repent about this?

[Hinds Feet]

For believers, we must remember Jesus knows and have experienced all our pains.  He relates to everything we are going through right now, and He was without sin.  So, Jesus became human.  He knows what we are going through.

[farouk]

On 11/28/2024 at 3:18 AM, Debp said:

Did you say the sinner's prayer or did you pray it?    Just mouthing words you don't really mean won't work.

Maybe you haven't gotten to the end of your rope yet?   Most people in desperation cry out to the Lord sincerely.   And the Lord hears and answers.

 

I guess the point is that the Lord Himself sees the heart. Smooth words are easy. A Romans 2 experience of repentance is God-given, linked with 'the goodness of God'.

[farouk]

Another verse is 2 Corinthians 7.10: "For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death."

[Figure of eighty]

On 12/1/2024 at 11:37 PM, nebula said:

Oh dear, that is really, really bad advice for someone dealing with major depression. :'(

I'll just say that for me, conviction is not something I've ever "felt." Any conviction I've had came in the form of what anyone would call "your conscious." 

Loving God isn't about a feeling, either.

I know you want to change - desperately. Unfortunately, change doesn't work that way. Sometimes we have to make the effort to make a choice not to engage in an activity, sometimes we have to find out what the root spiritual injury is and deal with that first, sometimes we have to take a stand in faith (trust) and declare such things as "The blood of Jesus covers my sin," or whatever fits with what is going on, or something to that effect.

The question I have for you, though, is do you believe God loves you?

Thanks

[Figure of eighty]

On 12/1/2024 at 11:37 PM, nebula said:

Oh dear, that is really, really bad advice for someone dealing with major depression. :'(

I'll just say that for me, conviction is not something I've ever "felt." Any conviction I've had came in the form of what anyone would call "your conscious." 

Loving God isn't about a feeling, either.

I know you want to change - desperately. Unfortunately, change doesn't work that way. Sometimes we have to make the effort to make a choice not to engage in an activity, sometimes we have to find out what the root spiritual injury is and deal with that first, sometimes we have to take a stand in faith (trust) and declare such things as "The blood of Jesus covers my sin," or whatever fits with what is going on, or something to that effect.

The question I have for you, though, is do you believe God loves you?

Thanks.  Also,

I'm having a rough night mentally. I think I'm gonna broach the subject of medication with my therapist. 

I'm exhausted mentally. Please keep me in your prayer. 

I'm really afraid of going crazy. Feels like it's creeping closer and closer.

[Debp]

1 hour ago, Figure of eighty said:

Thanks.  Also,

I'm having a rough night mentally. I think I'm gonna broach the subject of medication with my therapist. 

I'm exhausted mentally. Please keep me in your prayer. 

I'm really afraid of going crazy. Feels like it's creeping closer and closer.

Are you still not getting any sleep?   Your brain needs sleep in order to function.

If you aren't, you better tell your therapist about that.   No use giving medication if all you need is to get your proper sleep.

[AnOrangeCat]

1 hour ago, Debp said:

Are you still not getting any sleep?   Your brain needs sleep in order to function.

If you aren't, you better tell your therapist about that.   No use giving medication if all you need is to get your proper sleep.

Completely seconding this. As a frequent insomnia sufferer on those nights when I do get adequate sleep I often wake up and find myself thinking "Oh, this is what being alive is like?"

[Marathoner]

7 hours ago, Debp said:

Are you still not getting any sleep?   Your brain needs sleep in order to function.

If you aren't, you better tell your therapist about that.   No use giving medication if all you need is to get your proper sleep.

That's what helped me the most, sister. Once I started sleeping adequately, my resilience and resistance increased to the degree that what I suffer from lost its power. Overcoming it was possible. 

[Figure of eighty]

I have an update: So I finished my 1st quarter of Nursing school. 

But I won't be able to keep my place. My brother kept giving his money to the church and my mom sees nothing he's doing wrong. She gives him so much grace but is pretty hard on me. 

Now me and my kids will be living with her in her hotel.. I'll be leaving on the 26th or 27th of this month. Im trying not to fall into despair,depression,panic... 

All I ask for is prayers for strength and resilience.. 

Also those asking abt my sleep, I couldn't sleep due to nightmares...so far I'm doing okay but I assume they'll pick up again once I'm living with my mom. 

Also any suggestions I wouldn't mind. Whether spiritual or otherwise.  

I mainly want advice on how to keep going. I feel exhausted and depleted mentally. 

Edited 7 hours ago by Figure of eighty

[nebula]

:'-(

Big hugs!