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You know what, I have no idea, and looking back, I'm kind of like "God, Beka, just shut up, you were having a bad day!" @Fez huh? I mean there's only two people who I'd tell just about everything to, I consider them my siblings, and then there's a 3rd who I love spending time with, a 4th has become more bareable since she's got a boyfriend because previous to that she only wanted to talk about boys no matter how much I tried to steer the conversation to something less...exhausted. Other than that, the people who spend time with me are all bat **** crazy and I can't get them to take a hint that I kind of don't feel like dealing with them behaving as disgracefully as they do.

Is it horrible that I don't actually give a ****? I mean until the verdict I knew next to nothing of the Casey Anthony trial except that it's been going on for what feels like 4 years now. I still don't know anything about it except that a bunch of people thing the wrong decision was reached. 12 Angry Men much? As with most things besides the Iraq war, the more the TV covered it the less I cared. It didn't affect my every day life, she didn't supposedly kill my sister, why does it matter? To be truthful, it's crime drama's fault, we always see the one we believe to be guilty go away. It's people who watch to much tv passing thier own judgement while people who have studied law and such (and teens who took criminal law classes) who look at it and go "They never actually said she was innocent, just 'not guilty'," That was like the first lesson in Criminal Justice, not guilty does not mean innocent. edited to delete inappropriate word by Mizzdy

There aren't many good paying jobs for someone without a high school deploma let alone a collage degree, besides it doesn't bode well for my dreams of being a history teacher if I can't even pay for collage. Besides, all the friends I would want to live with/can stand for more than 3 hours are either sophmores, juniors, or going to collage as well Thank you ~Beka

It's not so much the lack of boundries, I'm actually fine with all the boundries they set for me, I wish they had set them for my sister. My problem is, and I thought of this after I had hit 'add reply' is that my parents are always going on (to me) about how I'm their 'good child' and how they 'never had any problems with me'. Yeah, you didn't have any problems with me because you gave me boundries, I knew how far I could pull the line. I also never had to deal with bullying, why? Because I could let a comment roll off my shoulders, my sister can't let the smallest comment roll off her shoulders, she has to fight everything. I'm not bitter, I love my life, I'm happy with how I lived it, I'm annoyed that 180 differeces were used in raising my sister and I and the same outcome is expected of both of us, I'd agree with some differences, I'm not athletic, my sister is. I have ADD, she doesn't, I like history, she hates it, reading is a punishment for her, it's not for me, keeping her inside is a punishment for her, unless we're at the beach I'd rather be inside. So differences are important, but 180 differences with the same results expected, then complaining because you're younger daughter has so many problems with her behavior is not...acceptable in any way. To be honest, I'm 18 yeah, but I'm way more mature than my classmates, the other week I said how parents shouldn't give in to their child's every demand and everyone except the teacher jumped down my throat and said "But the child doesn't have money and can't buy things they want on their own" So? So just because I throw a fit in the middle of a store I should get the Barbi doll I want? They were all like "Yeah" and I was like "No, that makes you a spoild rotten brat because then you throw a fit and expect your way all the time and if you do that in the work force you get fired." I have the same views on disiplen, I mentioned once how if my child deserved it (and obviously not to teach not hitting) I would spank my children, I was spanked, my parents were spanked, my classmates looked at me in absolute horror. Oh come on, I'm not going to abuse the kids!

Not only are you not being selfish, but here's another question, do you want to deal with a pair of sisters? I mean trust me, they'll play nice for the first week, the first month if your lucky, but one will do something and the other will retaliate and a fight will follow. It doesn't matter how they were raised, I know a pair of sisters who were raised always going to church, always praying, always taught to follow God, both are going to be nuns now. Anyway, I thought, 'oh that's so great, they must never fight.' just because it's not loud, doesn't mean it's not a fight. Sarah will talk in strained tones and Rachel will sound like she's trying to be reasonable. Eventually because she was taught to follow her elders and that her sister is her elder, Rachel will follow what Sarah says whether she agrees or not. So yeah, that's something else you've got to think about, do you always want to be a ref?

I would like to take a moment of your valuebal time for a pathetic rant from a whiney 18 year old with unfair parents, especially concerning how they raised her little sister. Like I said, I'm 18, my lil sis is four years younger than me, her school starts at 9:00 in the morning so she stays up till 10 frequently and doesn't wake up until 7:30 at the earliest. When I was her age, first of all, we lived in a different house where we were picked up by the bus at 8 in the morning, but God forbid I was up until 9:00 at night, and God forbid I wanted to watch anything other than Disney, Nickelodian, or Cartoon Network, any show other than those shown on those channels were just plain inapropriatre for children my age, 8th grade. I also had to pay for half of my video camera (which was a birthday presant, which I understand and agree with) and all of my iPod when my original MP3 player broke (from innocent causes, it fell a few times, when my dad reallly started using his and dropped it even less times than I had, his broke too). My lil sis still woke up around 7:30 and since I was always in bed before her I never knew what time she went to bed. The next year we moved into a new house, my sister and I went back to sharing a bathroom, here's something that happens from time to time: 10:00 at night my little sister comes barging into my room, demanding I go over and flush the toilet since I accidentally forgot. Here's something that frequently happens: I go to the bathroom at 6:00 am, SHE forgot to flush, but she get's on my case if I go into her room to get a hair tie in the morning (oh but she doesn't do it till dinner). Do you know how much trouble I'd get in if I woke her up at 6 to flush the toilet when she can just barge into my room at 10 at night and demand I do the same? She's also been watching Bones for about a year now, a show I wasn't allowed to watch at her age because I couldn't see dead bodies, blood, or sex when I was her age (granted I didn't even know the show existed back then, but if I did I wouldn't be allowed to watch it). I'm not allowed to go into her room without her permission, but she frequently barges into my room (especially when my door is shut) then comlains when she walks in on me changing. If I walk up the stairs behind her, she'll dilberatly stop mid-staircase and won't move until I try and dodge around her then do the exact same thing at the top of the stairs, and when I try and get around her, she goes for my room to block the doorway, possibly enter and lock it. Again, do you know how much trouble I'd get in for pulling a stunt like that? If she doesn't get her way she'll grab my arm and squeeze really hard or pretend to hit me so I flinch and laughs at me. The few times I've retaliated I've gotten punished. She also exploits my fear of flying projectiles, but if I would throw stuff at her I'd be punished. She gets away with saying mean things about me, but I can't do the same. My parents paid for not one, but 2 iTouches for her, both password protected and they don't even know the password, one she's had since 6th grade. If I had passoword protected anything (other than the obvious online accounts,) when I was her age my parents would have killed me (metaphoricly speaking) then 'asked' to know the password, they don't know the password to her iTouches. They also never take her phone and search her messages while they took mine several times between freshman year and sophmore year to see who I was texting and what I was saying. (I think it's cause they didn't think I could possibly have friends, I had this core group from 4th grade to 8th grade and most of them ditched me when we reached high school, then in high school I formed a new group that's shifted every year and I got a boyfriend freshman year.) Some facts about us: 8th grade my parents made me go to counciling because they thought I was anti-social, during that time I was diagnosed with ADD, I'm also a bit OCD (new developmet after freshman year) and a smidge of a smidge of a smidge of a smidge dyslexic. I was medicated for my ADD for two years, but the medicine didn't do anything and I hate taking any form of medicine so I stopped. There is nothing wrong with my sister. I guess I'm just mad that I have a billion and one boundries, none of them relaiting to my ADD (I don't think my parents notice the other stuff, the only people who have are the ones who notice me eating M&Ms, Skittles, Smarties, gummies and various Cereals) and she has none. I'm also not anti-social because I have friends and a bunch of people like me, it's just my friends and I don't really hang out after school (and neither do my sister and her friends except for one who she's been friends with since Kindergarden). ~Beka

I agree with Isaiah - please don't base your judgment against Charismatics on what you see through the media. But I have to ask, do I creep you out? No, but most people on the internet don't, which is prolly really bad. Anyway, I'm just saying that's the vibe I get when I hear the word, my gut instinct says it's creepy and my gut instinct is hard to change, especially when it's been right so many times.

Why do Charismatics seem wrong to you? Are you Catholic? I know of some Charismatic Catholics. I was ministered to by one of them many years ago. If by "Faith Tradition" you mean the tradition of the Catholic Church, would not that be all Protestants and interdenominationals and such, not just Charismatics? I couldn't properly articulate why it feels wrong, it just does, like the creeper janitor at my school and our creeper neighbors who ended up being drug dealers. It also severly reminds me of an episode of Supernatural where Dean has a heart attack because of crazy amounts of electricity flowing through him and Sam takes him to this healer guy who's basicly running his own church and whose wife is controling a reaper (grim reaper). She kills someone else, someone she believes is leading a sinful life, whether it's being gay, having an affair, anything the news covers and she disagrees with, to save the person being healed. Yes I'm Catholic, no, not all other denominations of Christianity feels squelchy to me, just Charismatics. Peace and out ~Beka

Personal opinion, all of that just pr.oves that God is real, how could all of those prime conditions occure by chance, if we asked Charlie Epps from NUMB3RS the odds have to be ASTRONOMICAL, and yet they occured, they coincided perfectly, someone had to have His hand in that. Personal opinion 2.0 - science has continually confirmed my belief in God, never once denyed it, we are only understanding things now that God has created for us from the begining.

I don't know if this applys but what about charismatic groups? Maybe it's just me but don't they sound a little, to borrow my best friend's term, squelchy. I mean the only thing I know about charismatic groups is what I learned from news coverage a few years ago and it seemed like the Catholic Church was unaffected, then I find out this year that my church has a charismatic group and they held a healing service at my church like a week or two ago. Again maybe it's just me but charismatic just seems wrong, to me it feels like they're going to compleatly break away from Faith Tradition which is a bad, bad, bad, bad, bad, bad, bad (repeat until you have to take a breath then repeat that 3 times) thing. Thoughts? Peace out, Beka

Dear child, there is nothing wrong with you, you have been dealt a bad hand. You are inferior to no one! *offers a virtual hand since she cannot offer her real one* come here I give you my biggest squeezing hug (they're super special hugs in my family) and I hope you feel better someday! I will be here for you with a virtual hug whenever you need one! ~Peace out Beka

Oh Angie! You are not alone! I too strugle with a dark side! It has been a year since I last drew lines and words on my arm with a screwdriver (hard enough to cause pain, soft enough to never bleed) I consider myself a recovering cutter, but my friend whom I confided this in tells me that I am not a recovering cutter, that I had to use a blade to be a cutter. I'm not so sure this is true. Anyway, slightly off topic. The point is, much like with you, that hole that lead me to the screwdriver is still there, it has scabbed, the scab has been ripped off, and is begining to scab once again. I have healed through my father, through confronting him on the things he has done to cause me pain (writing on facebook the truth of his father's health, but never sitting my sister and I down to tell us that.) We have made peace with eachother, and that has helped me heal. I've also forgiven my mother for something I've hated her for since I was little and her father died, she prayed that he would not suffer, that if he had to pass he would do so quickly, without pain. Now, knowing my other grandfather is sick, and being so much more mature I understand, while I selfishly want my grandfather to be at my wedding, I also wish that he would not suffer, and if that means death, then so be it. I suppose my whole point is that you are not alone and I am always willing to talk with you. You have taken the first step in telling us, we have risen to meet you, now let us walk together and support eachother. Peace out ~Beka

I always think that videos of the aurora always look like the camera man/woman is moving, it's always beautiful though!!!!!!!!!!

Stepping in with the RC view point. Jesus said, no, no divorce, he said it's adultry to marry a divorced woman, and it's adultry to marry again after divorcing your wife. That's not the RC view point yet, that's what the bible says, don't ask me where. This is the RC view point, if you're going to get a divorce then get an annullment, an annullment means that the love was not there from the begining. From what I understand, it's really hard to get an anullment, and there's books and books on the situation. I know one example, if the guy or the girl says "oh this marriage will only last two months" if it doesn't work out, even a couple of years later, that phrase is grounds for an annullment because the parter was never committed for more then two months. Peace out ~Beka

So I make a point of combineing weird things, it's joked that they can be worse then any pregnant woman can come up with. I put clementines on a hot dog roll, not that weird but still my family looked at me strange. My favorite had to be my either Star Wars or LOTR combo, I forget what I was watching when I first made it, anyway it's Root Beer, Grape Kool Aid, and Chocolate Syrup. This was created when my family was going through a phase when we mixed Grape Kool Aid into all our sodas. Oh My Goodgollygosh, it is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So it's got an after taste, and in my opinion the after taste is that of a tootsie roll. On the flip side, I would never recomend A&W, or Mug Root Beer to drink with Fetuchine Alfrado, the tastes do not mix, if you want to drink Root Beer with Fetuchine Alfrado, I'd recomend going with some of the better made stuff, like what the sell at like Olive Garden, you know when you order it they deliver it in a glass bottle that looks like a real bottle. I actually scare people with that because I don't like ice in my drinks so I don't pour it into the glass they provide. ANYWAY off topic there, sorry, the other root beer I'd recomend, I can't recall the title off the top of my head, but when you buy it it's got the silver label, starts with a B I think and it's got a barrel on it. Peace Out ~Beka <3 <3 <3 P.S. I've had issues with chronic nose bleeds so I'v also "eaten" my own blood.